Tie 103

PB collection: So last night I watched Breaking Dawn. I enjoyed the movie, but unlike the past three movies, I read the book before I watched the movie instead of watching and then reading. Either way, I knew how it was ending, lol. So this time I felt like I was filling in most of the movie mentally and felt that I watched very little which is impossible since the movie was almost two hours. Sadly, after watching I got slightly depressed just like when I finished reading the book. I don't know what it is but I get "homesick" in a way or have a longing of some sort to be like the story. I don't want to be a character, but have that sort of dedication to family and a person. I guess that is what it is. I definitely could live without the drama, fights, deaths. I just don't want to mull over this anymore than I have to and sadly I feel like I'm going to go see part two. Because I enjoy the story. I just hope I'll be in a better time in my life and a little bit closer to God and content in the state that I am in. Because singleness is a gift from God. I am really trying to see it that way. Paul thought it was, so I hope I can get some insight into that. Until then; Much love, K